New Year

Last year I was at home, sleeping on my comfort bed in the cold winter,

And today I am in my lab, writing this post and enjoying the pleasant weather.

When I looked back and think, how this year went..I can only say,

Time flies away in the blink of my eyes,

All I could remember was spending and welcoming the New Year 2015 with my family;

But now here I will be in my hostel with my friends, at least I am not alone.

This year, I had happy memories, i laughed with people i cherished the most

As well as i endured my bad times with the care from my loved ones

I  learn to become a better person,

I learn to walk and heal from my own pain,

I learn to endure the frustrations, still i had cried over my sorrow.

I learn to live with patience, still i need to learn to be more patient..

I had work hard but at the same time, i had learned to live with failure.

But most importantly, I learned to have more faith in the power of prayers,

Faith in my own prayers as well as faith in my loved ones prayers.

And now, I am waiting eagerly for the new year to come,

For a fresh start, new hope and new beginnings..

And today will again be a past memory soon..










I thought the distance of the bridge could be shorten,

by understanding each other

instead i realized i was being too naive,

as i could see the loop holes clearly on the path to the bridge,


I thought trust could move every soul,

but i realized, words are too easy to say,

As to trust each other,

one need the words to be spoken from the heart


I thought with love, one can move mountains,

but i realized, i was just innocent,

as it takes courage and bravery,

to emerge out from our own heart and move the mountains


I thought accepting each others fault,

would help us to lean on each other easily,

but i realized forgiving each other,

is the hardest thing to do.
















Festive Season

The dried yellow leaves of autumn season, the warm sun rays, perfect for the season, not so cold, not so hot;
it’s just warm enough which is in perfect harmony with the warm feeling coming from our loved ones during this festive season at back home.

And I am here away from home and my family members, and I sure do miss them and the festivals.

If I had knew that the times I spent with my close ones during this festive season before eight years back won’t come back again for time being, I would have spent it and be with them as if it was the last moment. I should have given my all for them.

At back home, tomorrow is the day when all the married women will be invited for lunch by their brothers in their maiden home. We called it as ‘Ningol Chakouba’. The brothers cook delicious, special food for their married sisters; the sisters adorn their traditional dresses prettily and go home with lots of snacks and sweets. The brothers and their parents eagerly wait for their daughters with their kids to come home. Together, they enjoy the food cooked by their brothers merrily, talking and laughing about good days. The brothers presents gifts whatever they can give to their sisters and their kids as a token of their love, and the elders giving blessing to the young ones.Still they continue to laugh and enjoy the moment. This is how the day goes.

As a child along with my own brother and sister, I had always enjoy this day, not because of the gifts or anything, but the fact that I will be enjoying a good lunch with my uncles, aunt and cousin’s together at my mother’s maiden home. Even though we meet now and then, but on this day I feel more special and I do love the affection from my uncles. Spending times, playing together and listening to my elder’s cousins stories are one of the best memories that I had when I was growing up. Later when I go back to my own home, again with my grandparents, uncles, aunt and my cousin’s from my father’s side, we all have dinner together and go to watch movies to end the day. Sure I do miss those days, those moments, those times of togetherness.

Even though I am far from them for now, and I will in my lab working like a normal day, but I won’t be able to hide the feeling of this warmth of this day and will be missing my folks back home. It is the love of our loved ones that warm us, that make us who we are, even though we might have misunderstanding with them sometimes, but on a day like this we forgive and forget all the bad stuffs and enjoy the good times only to bring all of us closer again.

And with the memories of this festival, I realized the meaning of the phrase “Live each day as if it is last day” because if I had knew I won’t be able to attend ‘Ningol Chakouba’ at my mother’s maiden home for a long time, I would have enjoy the previous one with all my might with my loved ones. Seeking blessings and advice from my elders, playing with my cousins, i would have enjoyed more.

The dream

The memories which continues to haunt me,

To saddened me, to troubled me

Thought I had erased it, thought I had forgotten,

But still it appears as my dreams.

Once it was a pleasant dream,

But now it is a dream which I do not want to remember

Those bitter sweet memories of my past,

Though I had my moment during those times,

But now I don’t want to think about it

As it continues to hurt me,

As my heart still aches for it.

Even though I console myself by saying, “It’s okay, every story has its end.”

It still continues to hurt me sometimes.

Even though I have learned to live with the pain,

I don’t want to feel this anymore

This memories, this dreams, I want it to fade away,

As I don’t want to recollect it anymore

Like a dry leaf trampled and blown away by wind,

I want these memories to fade away

Away from my mind and my heart

So that I can see fresh dreams again.


She always says “Be strong, just have the will to endure little bit more, everything will be all right”.
He taught me “Don’t depend on others, what you can do, do it by yourself, the pleasure is more fun when you do your own work by yourself “.

When someone hurt me, she said “Don’t worry, believe in humanity and never hurt others. Don’t get swayed away from humanity as God is always there for us.”
When i get tired from my life, he said “Your will power and your motivation is your strength, you can do it”.

When I say, i miss home, she said,”We are there for you always, why do you need to miss home, just focus on your work, we are here and our home is still here. When you come back, i will cook good food for you.”
When I wanted to give up, he always tell me, “It’s okay, you will do it next time, i believe in you.”

When I am worried about my unseen future, he says, “Don’t worry, There must be something good store ahead for my daughter, everything will happen at right time”.
When i accomplished a small thing, she says,”See, your hard work pays off, there is nothing better than doing your best, continue to strive for better.”

When my uncle passed away and when i cried, she said, “its okay, even though it hurt for now, what can else we do, his time here is over and he had to go, leaving us. This is what getting old means, someday i have to go also.”
When ever we go out or have vacation, he always say, “Take pictures, seize the moment as photos, this are the memories that we will always remember”.

These are the  words from my most important person in my life. Simple words but it contains all what i need to know to go through my life.
For all these years, i grew up listening and remembering this words, helping me to be strong and independent.

I recollect this words when i am struggling,
when i want to give up,
when things are not going well.

They have always been there in my walk of my life.
Who I am right now, what I am doing right now, its because of them.
The two most opposite people that i have ever met , but taught me everything.
My parents. I am really blessed to have them.

Wave of Innocence

You may pity me, but I am happy here
As I am laughing to my heart’s content
You may think, I don’t have anything,
but I belong here,
You may feel sad for me,
But I am playing freely here without any bondage
on the lap of my green mother nature.

I wake up with the sound of chirping birds
when the first sun rays fall on my face
not by the sound of something else.

I am not envious of big buildings or fancy places
as I don’t want to get immersed in the world of temptations and greed
as I still want to keep the child inside me alive.

I can climb to nearby mountains whenever I want
so that I could scream and shout there
and says to myself that I am on the top of world

I can sit there whole day,
watching the shepherd bringing their herds for grazing
people working on the green fields
my friends playing in the muddy water and pitches
with the sound of giggling voices of happiness.

I can stay here forever
encapsulated in the calm and serenity milieu
with no thoughts of hatred and fighting
sharing the little whatever we have
with my own people.

I don’t want to lose my innocence over the daily struggles of our life
as these trifling things continue to exist
as both pain and happiness are the sides of a same coin

I don’t want to lose my bright smile when I grow up
I just want to be myself like how I am now,
watching the shapes that those fluffy cloud makes,
lying here on the carpet of soft green grass.

And when evening come and sun has set down beyond the horizon
when flocks of birds gather together and fly back towards their home,
I will also go home with my arms wide open
with my friends to my lovely parents who will be waiting for me.

I will be in the arms of my loving parents
and this is where my home is,
My abode where I love to stay till I grow old.

So, don’t feel sorry for me, as I am happy here.

* The above post is inspired by a small child living in a conflict area in a small village where he was playing happily without any thoughts of worries and tensions.









Let it Go

Sometimes letting go of some things is the most  difficult task
More than anything it is one of the hardest thing

Letting go of our anger,
Letting go of our grudges against someone,
Letting go of our comfort zone,
To let go of our dreams, our hope, our confidence,
The dreams that we had seen, which we hold dearly to our heart with all the minute hope and perseverance that we had;
Letting go of the person whom we love the most
Letting go of all the memories which were once the best ones in our life
Letting  go of all the things that we had once treasured the most.
Letting go of the bad times that one had endured, the tears that you had shed once

For once in our life, some moments come in which one need to be brave
And have the courage to  be able to give up
To let it go and start new again.

So that you can have the strength again to stand up
to be able to face the world,
to smile again, to endure again,
to regain the lost confidence,
to love again,
to realized that it does not meant the end of everything
instead  it means the start of something new and beautiful;
to end the bad dreams we had seen ,
So that only fresh dreams will be there again.

I do hope I can also get up and let go of my pain,
So that I could start fresh again.